Cynic

Tonight I'm trying.....

I will have the amp of my choice in early 2006. I've decided on that much. I owe it to myself. That being said, however, makes me kind of sad. The only thing I can think of that I want for christmas is a new head and cab. Then when I think about what i'm using it for, and I get all upset. Why does it have to be this way? Am I creating an ultimatum? Crap. These are dark days. I don't really know who I am anymore. A Dad. A guitar player in a band. A husband. I know I sound ungrateful. I'm really sorry that I feel that way. I have a great job, a beautiful daughter, an equally beautiful wife, a truck that runs, a dog that shits on the floor, a band thats played for 1500+ people in one sitting...so why am I not happy?